Just when you thought things could be better

Last nite was exciting cause FH and I went for another long run after work. We’ve been doing pretty well about running for a few months now. We’ve been running at least twice a week for the past few months. My running schedule has been on and off since I ran a marathon a few years ago, but these past few months it’s been consistent. It’s been a nice outlet cause it helps getting us in shape for the wedding, clearing up my head and making me feel better.

I’ve been feeling kind of off lately. I don’t know what it is, but it’s not making me feel good at all. I hate that feeling. I felt that way on and off for a few years now and I don’t know what it is, but I think I keep too much things to myself or I sweat the small stuff and care so much what other think and I’m here talking like I don’t.

It’s weird cause I love to watch movies where the main character speaks her mind and doesn’t give a shit to what people think. IE. Juno for example..I love that movie..it’s well written and I love the evolution of the character. Where you think she’s this strong, independent type that loves to speak her mind and not give a shit, but find out deep down inside she’s like anyone else and really does care about what others think..UGHH I hate that feeling.

Just when I think that things are going well and I thought I had my life in control something else comes up and wakes me up from this alternate dream. Sounds pathetic I know but life can’t always be easy I guess. I’m just in a lull right now and I hope I can get out of it soon.